MIA - Til better ,
I've been crying for 3days and 2nights alrd .
I cant seem to get hold of my dumb feelings alrd .
Before being back tgt w you , many said no .
Many said , think carefully , Many opposed .
I agreed , i went ahead with you . Bt whut happened ,
I got hurt most . 6months of pain wasnt enough ? Now i have to be back ,
Into th same old square .
070309 - You asked me thru th phone ,
we went cold , completely speechless , till my frens helped .
070409 - We were close , Better ,
thanks to frens , bonded , felt luv , taught me to .
070509 - I tought this luv , would nvr end , i tot , we wld be tgt .
Forever , like in fairytales . We made promises . everything .
070609 - Broke , patched , broke , patched .
heart ache , tears felled . I cldnt stop .
070709 - One day aft my bdae , i started crying , cried like fugzxc .
Th r/s , changed . Turned .
070809 - Worsed , nvr changed , turned fr th bad , thn worsed .
070909 - Ending was coming , i didnt knew . i tried to ,
bt i cldnt . Teards felled .
250909 - I cried , my heart out , I cried 7times in a day .
Recieved my frens help , Changed . Tried to muv on ,
Cldnt , lastly i felled . for 6months . til i picked up .
During 6months , i recieved so many people's help .
Til i move on , till i srsly felt better . I met others ,
Others waited for me , some was rejected . I did that cus i luved you .
I believed we had a chance , my frens , whoeever they were ,
Said i was stupid , tht im dumb , tht i shld giveup . Stop liking him .
040110 - First day of schl , see-ed him . Cried .
Insonmia , Couldnt go on agn .
As time went on , i healed . Diddnt caredd / mattered about him .
030310- Patched , Happied . But diddnt expect much ,
Cus i realised fairytales diddnt exist , didnt hope .
Didnt luv too much .
040310 - Closer , happied . Started to luv much more .
Started to think , started . On raphsody , our first kiss laid on Tiong , at 11plus .
040510 - Closer and Closer , Fucking Happy .
luved alot , wanted time , wanted him .
Wanted everything .
260510 - Turned sour , idk whut to do . I cried .
Im so fucking sad , wetted my whole pillow , used a bunch of tissues .
He was th only one who ever cared about my fucking life .
Who luved me for me , bt nw , im afraid to lose him .
Idk whut i shld do , im lost .
I really trully am . Can anyone just teach me ?
I cant hang on . My hearts , breaking into a million pieces :C .
Stabbed me . I cld only blame myself , being dumb ,
to look back , and to hang on .
When looking back and hanging on are just illusions of lub .My hearts breaking .
Save me . :C ..
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