`/ Im seem to stuck @ this chapter , Just cant Move on .



- I badly wna move on :C .
But how can i , when ure th one ,
i ultmitely luv most . I know , You could have moved on .
Found a better Luv . everyth . Im seem to stuck at this chapter /
Of luv , of life . I wish you diddnt came in , i hoped .
Its best to live things as it is you know , many told me ,
You patched , but you broke , wtfuck ? Others told me , at least ive seen your true colours . Everyone says , you aint worth . Then why does my heart care ?
Why did you have to break it twice ? Haven't you realised how fragile i am ?
I've been crying in my sleep , Crying when i wake , Crying before i sleep ,
Crying whenever i listen to songs , Crying when i rmb you , Crying for you .
But you ? Youre happily enjoying urself , i know i suck . But i dunnid you ,
to hurt me further , just when i've picken myself up .
Ndrea , Lijun , Sheena , siaoming : they kept their words ,
they tried to help me . but srsly , th agony i go through ,
isnt by just saying ive moved on , isnt by having you back .
Its about healing my heart . I've let you in twice , you've broken it twice .
Ive been scolded a fool , dumb , cus no one ever gets hurts twice .
Did i ever meant smth to you ? Like , srsly ? Once top in ur heart ?
Never , I never did felt your luv , never had , never did , never have .
I've never felt your care , and my meaning to you . Regretted .


Hello (: .
Ive been starting of my posts , with emolicious .
I cant help it thou , Couldnt control .
Going audi soon , Hope my broken heart heals soon ^^ .
Ytd -
Cried my whole fxcking pillow wet , had to dry it before sleep .
Nandha , Sheun boon , Eunice , Lijun , Xueting . Thnks all .
Haiz , I rmbed our first kiss this yr , near th pie kia thr . th mobile shp beside .
I rmbed, You kissed me back . Ur reaction , Your seemed happy , this love seemed sweet . I rmbed , We held hands , i leaned on you on th bus ,
I rmbed , our first pic last yr , when my frens told me , its ur greatest wish .
I rmbed , th past , every bit so much , Why didnt you ?
Why're you so cruel ? If forgetting you , amounts me to through this amount of misery .
Im sorrey , i cant . Its too painful , i dwna hang on . im hurting and bleeding .
My eyes , are swollen from crying , but you dun care .
Stop my pain .

- Morning ,
Woke , cried . Had a bad dream abt him ytd . Cried my pillow fxck wet .
wtheck , since when did my tears came ? -.- .
I dreamt of your cruel smses , and th way , you left for good .
I luv you badly boy , but you dont . I know that all too well . all this will nvr come back , again .
I can only wish you , Find a btr girl thn me .
Even though it hurts in my heart , thrs nothing else i can do right ?
I can only wish , my pain heals , my memories gone .

-Crying as i write this post , i loved you from th start .
You diddnt . Whut can i do ? with your face / memories / last words .
Hurting me like a knife .Stabbing me every minute .
I feel like dying .