`/ If you taught me how to luv , thn its likly you broke my heart



im oh so troubled .
Boy , ure like th most damn impt thing in my whole life .
You wun see this , but maybe its time we end this . i told u :C .
I know u dun bare to , i cant either .
but its really hurting me :C .
i feel so inferior . i feel so loner . i feel like we aint meant to be .
i cant re-assure my fears , idunno if im th one ure looking for .
i srsly want to pretend everyth's all right , its fine .
but i cant , im finding it so hard . u meant so much .
that i would do anyth for u , like srsly .
cus ure th one thts constantly thr , th one who diddnt mind me for me .
but im so confused .. i really dk whut to do .
i see my closest frens , all tormented by th power of lub .
Im confused , blind , maybe im goddamnhated .
but i dun give a damn , haiz .
Im feeling such a mixture of mix feelings , i miss my past .
i miss th old me , i wan2 rewind time back , be th old me . change .
I miss my past alot , i wish to undo my mistakes .
Im living each day with fear , closest tells me ,
thrs nothing to be afraid of being alone .
"You still have me , when ure alone , tell me , i'll pei u . " Baby .
"Even if ure alone , you still have frens around you " Yitshern .
"Dun think too much and cheerup , i'll be thr for u " Eunice .
"If you need me , im here for you , I know you'll be whut ure " Veon .
"I may not be w u @ schl , but im hre fr a sms / cor / sat , like how we used to go w Justin , Xueting , Shuqi " Odessa .
"Cheerup dear , i may not be able to help you , but every morning you'll find us thr <3" Sheralynn .

{ I want to thank all th above people for their support , and re-assuring me .
Some other tiongxims were asleep alrd yeh , not going carnival tmrw ,
feeling that imma like so hated , so alone , so dead , so idk how to say .
Sometimes , i think alot , but whut i think doesnt dun come true whut .
Haiz , i know whenever i have happiness or something at hand ,
its always ruined , maybe thats why i feel inferior and stuffs . Haiz ,
Lets hope tht feeling gets off me . And im feeling better hope so :C .
Baby sms-ed and fell asleep i guessed . left justin and yitshern pei-ing and comforting me alrd :C .
I really nidda thank you guys alot . since im being so a loner .
Maybe smetimes , being alone is better thn wanting to have frens , did i really change drastically ? I remembered myself , being so retarded , so like whutthheck do i care ? i changed from a carefree person , to someone worrying so much .
Like they say , whut will happen will happen , i dun mind being alone alrd .
Being comforted by so many warm words , i thank alot of them .
Alrights , ciao :D .